"Circumcise heart" and "meat"

I was tired yesterday so took well a nap but slept…got up close to 10 pm had not fed the pups even their dinner. So fed pups cleaned them and all went back to bed…I got up couldn’t sleep. Yesterday a lot of thoughts about the Muslims and searching, wishing I could talk to Walid Shoebat…for several reasons in things heard from him, his testimony I loved as the man first hear did proper.. Ask God…about Messiah. I talk Ask Ask Ask over and over I feel..but people ask man not God. Walid had a love for God a seeking desire in his heart to know the truth so asked. Many people raised many different ways..believe there is a God. They don’t see evidence or things within their religions they investigate to gain knowledge of others. Yet how many with a heart to really know and desire to follow the one true God creator of everything including us…Ask even that way. Most all even talk or have a Messiah type in their religions. Walid Ask God to show him married a Catholic woman. Now the difference between him and Matthew is that he never said he was a prophet. That is what Messiah sent. So question…if Messiah said He sent Prophets, wise men and scribes. Who would be type giving instruction? How many religions have Prophets leading them? Anyway just asking…but that not where I was getting up at 11:12 again. Did though curious about Ishmael and timing of things look him up. While scanning some things hear:

“Circumcise heart” of course I am working on things to higher my son to work for me is the direction I am going. I want J first so had asked him how much money for you to work for me..I want no man over you. I asked how much he made a year…and would he for x amount work for me. So that is what I will do. If there is no support for me.. word then that is it I am done. I want no money for myself.. I want my son..starting with J. I will higher him myself..with support or I am done this can all be blown away. So I am going that direction I am done with people of this would wanting to know and understand anything done. I will say happy hunting next time if there is one. All are has bens (sounds like wolf benjamin Paul and Saul) to me…and J and Josh live as they would all in the world..let it be song.

Well I started weeping with that word talking to Father in head… all scriptures I brought “meat” Messiah.. who cares what u see I talk head to Father. It is great that companies like duckduckgo and bing and yahoo all do things to help search but you tell me what has any of them owners done to support my efforts? Or allow me to higher my son?

I am done…I will try myself as it is just me at the moment and may forever be for all I know. So that my yaking to Father.

I got not one dam penny with the fund raising not even from my family so no person but me seems to believe a dam thing. Not one email not one comment.. I have had enough…and that is what I told Father…show me something..I gave all I can give to a people like this.

IF NOT ANY PERSON OR JOINED TOGETHER PERSON CAN'T AFFORD AND SUPPORT ME IN THIS GIVE TO ME PEOPLE I WILL PAY MY SON J TO WORK FOR ME WE ARE TALKING 1 PERSONS SALARY IF NOT ONE PERSON CAN STEP UP TO SUPPORT ME AS THIS IS MY CALL ME FOR ME FOR ME